We've all been missing you like crazy.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm in denial or haven't grasped enough yet that you died. I'm not sad, mostly because you're still such a big part of my life. I feel like you're still always around - I'm sure Ryan feels it too since I've still got so much junk of yours around the house and yard.
Every day I think of something that reminds me of you, or something that I'd like to tell you that would make you smile. I want to call you or text you so bad and let you know what's up, or ask you a gardening question. The girls are growing up so fast and doing and saying funny things. They still love princesses and dancing. They love the Barbie House you made. Thanks for saving all those dolls and clothes in there. It was so cool to see all that stuff again after 20 years. I sometimes send Floyd and Rick pictures or videos of the twins which I'm sure you'd be sending on to them anyway.
I'm not really sure how Aubrey is handling things, but Heidi seems to be hit really hard. I wish I could help her get through it easier. We talk a lot about you and things you'd say or do. We laugh and remember the good times. I talked to Grandma a few days ago and she misses you so much. She doesn't want to get out much anymore.
We've been taking the girls to church just about every Sunday. They love going to Nursery and "All the kids, Mama!" They love to learn about Jesus and they love to pray. After every prayer, they say, "AMEN! That's it!" They do that with every prayer in Sacrament Meeting too. It's nice and quiet after a prayer and you can hear them saying "That's it!" Too funny!
I'd love to call you and chat about McBride genealogy. I've got a few people I've met online that are related from way back in the family line. We've been exchanging pictures and stories and information. It's been really great. The new Church genealogy site new.familysearch.org has also been really cool. It tells you whose work isn't done and you can get "dibs" to do it yourself. Like Grandma's parents aren't done, so that will be cool to get that done eventually. It makes me want to try harder to get to the temple.
We've got a great new ward, much like 9th Ward - it's so easy to go to church every Sunday with all that support. Mom's been a great help to come over before church and help get the girls ready so I can get ready.
I want you to know that I'm so proud of the life you lived, the friendships you forged and maintained, and the example you set for everyone. It was such an honor to be your daughter, even though you could be a pain in the butt sometimes. You said it best yourself, "When I'm in Utah, and I've got at least two daughters mad and not talking to me, I know it's time to go back home."
It's been on my mind fairly constantly that you're up in Heaven preparing another little soul to come to our family. I can't get it out of my mind. Ryan and I have talked about having more kids and I'm feeling like the time might be soon, so STOP WORRYING ABOUT IT!
I love you, Dad.
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